A Perpetual State of Mental Apathy:
It is important to remember ~
"Depersonalization
can make it seem like a person doesn't really care about anything and
everything. And it's true, they very likely don't! This includes important
dates, traditions, best friends, close family, and experiences and happenings
in life that would otherwise invoke an emotional response from a person that
doesn't suffer from depersonalization and derealization...
This doesn't mean that they don't want to care, or that they aren't conscious
of their inability to care or express concern, interest, enthusiasm, etc, but
that they can't to the extent and level that they once were able to as a person
who did not suffer from the effects of chronic Lyme Disease and
its co-infections."
Floating:
"Floating or "floating
through life" can be defined as the ever present feeling of immunity or
disconnect from all of life's meaning, purpose, reason, values and
experiences while maintaining normal life functions and activities.
When a person with Lyme Disease stops and reflects on this feeling, feelings of isolation, worthlessness, self-pity, failure, estrangement tend to overwhelm a person's thought process.
The reality in which they exist in appears to be surreal or dream like. They start to question reason, purpose, existence and even their own sanity. Truth appears to blend in with fiction, making it extremely difficult to distinguish between the two.
It may appear through the lens of the person that the entire world feels the same as they do and can't consciously accept this illusion. They may feel the need or wish to "get out of their head" and stand a distance from this state of cognitive distortion."
The ever present feeling of Dis-connect.
